Danger! Danger!

There are some things that people should know based off of common sense. There are other things that you have to let a person know. 

HEY FACEBOOK MESSENGER...and all of its users, sure would've been nice if you all let someone know that when you create a group and add people to it... They can see the name of the group you put them in.....

I put my sisters in a group right when I was about to go to bed. Then I was going to put all of my exs in a group but couldn't figure out an awesome nam for the group. Some of the list of names that came to mind were; Long list of ex lovers? Dickbag mcdouche? People who are going to hell because they are terrible people? I was about to move a bunch of guys into that category but fell asleep.

That my friends is God stepping in.

I woke up and my younger sister had sent a message that was like "you made a group for us! Yay!" I was like how did she know? And then immediately I was like TELL ME I DIDNT MAKE IT...

I didn't.

But holy fuck balls...

Also it added ALL of my contacts to this messenger thing BUT I thought it FRIEND requested everyone in my phone which includes my coworkers/staff/bosses past and present and of course.. More guys I used to talk to or date but never got around to deleting.

I've never had a heart attack before but I'm fairly sure it felt something like that. 

It's terrible that more than the people I work with, I was more concerned with exes. 

I just need a vaycay from social media and the phone in general... 

Hahah well til next time...

xo

Get Over Yourself--Goodbye

People should definitely take this advice to be playful with your love. Not prideful and not play with someone else's love--mmmhmmm. Hahah 

Something I'm noticing more from girls than guys lately (and maybe always) is that the amount of pride girls have lately is baffling. Ok probably not so easy to believe when there are oh so many THOTs running around but truly, a lot of my female friends and relatives--pride is ridiculous. 

The things that they won't say or do in the name of love due to their "pride" is mind blowing. From my point of view, I totally understand not wanting to have your ego squashed or feelings butt hurt...but sometimes it's not about that. Sometimes it's just about figuring shit out aloud and being the first one to make the move, whether it's to initiate conversation via text or phone, offer an apology, etc.

It's not desperate or thirsty (assuming it's a one time thing and you're not staking the shit out of someone).

So many of the females in my life boldly claim to be honest and upfront and typically they are but when it comes to men, they like to pretend not to care and secretly seethe rather than putting shit out there. Wtf sense does that make, ladies... If you feel some kinda way, then just say it. Too many people are obsessed with "winning" and looking like they got the "upper hand" and someone else is "crawling back" to them etc etc.

Honesty? Fuck that. It is what it is and if someone takes that (your attempt to open dialogue first) as a sign of weakness or submission, then they are sadder than you. Truly. This isn't a dick measuring contest. Even if it was, you may have the longest dick of them all but clearly, no balls.

Naturally, it's easy for me to say rather than take my own advice. There's a boy I need to reach out to just to apologize and nothing more and it's literally causing me physical discomfort to do so bc I'd rather set myself on fire and roll around in glass than to reach out to him. But... It's not about him--it's about my ability to make peace with what I've done, and I owe him an apology, despite what he has done. 

And I will reach out... Once I finish finding a million other things I need to do before I do haha this is what I mean by I understand. I am, however, really going to reach out so.. I'm not a total hypocrite. 

Here's to my last prideful post and hoping to make amends or at least find some peace.

xo

Cleaning Out My Closet

Bags and bags and bags of my past tossed out...sadly this doesn't even begin to scratch the surface but it's a good start. Notes, bday cards, Xmas cards, backstreet boys posters, magazines, etc. I thought I'd never say good bye to the fan merchandise but I realized that I will not be Mrs. Nick Carter so it's a bit easier to move on :)

Not to mention I'm on this kick where I'm all about clearing out the old to bring in the new. I cleared it people I don't know from my Facebook or don't really remember and likely in a little bit I'm going to unfriend people I straight up do not like. (But without that annoying passive aggressive message that people post).

I'm sincerely hoping that all this clearing out old stuff will bring me new things and not necessarily material... A new love or a new old love would be ideal but it's not really up to me hahah bummer.

Ugh. This summer has been a summer of change but boring. Maybe my first tattoo will shake things up...

xo

Foolish Games (Contin)

Part 2

Sometimes I hate people but then i remember I have some rad friends like Bobby and Waltersaurus (yes that is his real name)

xo

Foolish Games

I love a good emoji and we all know that breathe music so me and two of my dear/favorite guy friends who were clearly bored at work a lot played a "name that tune" type of game:

..and this is only part 1...

xo