No idea why but I saw this at a wedding and the song "Bad Blood" came to mind. And I also felt like it's totally representative of who I am at the moment.
I can't put my finger on it but I can't figure out for the life of me what's going on in any capacity.
Mostly of who I am. And why people think I'm such a bitch. I know it sounds obnoxious but by looks alone, I feel like I look like a nice girl.
One of my more recent dates told me I had resting bitch face. I've also gotten several messages saying the same from various guys per a dating site that I'm on. It's bizarre bc not only do I feel like I look like a nice person, but I feel deeply for people but just don't know how to emote it I guess... I feel like I do but apparently not...
There are three guys I care deeply for and none of the three seem to have understood.
Simply put, I don't think any of them realized how much I cared and care for them and there's no reassurance of why I should continue to do this when I clearly don't get it back. Not to say they didn't in their own way show signs of love and affection but... Clearly it wasn't blatant enough bc I'm still by myself and not in the "I'm fabulously single" kind of way.
I go through moments when I blame myself. And by moments its a majority of the time. I don't know what else I can do to melt my ice princess image and who wants to be shattered over and over again?
I really wonder if I should take a page from the Taylor Swift notebook and start writing songs...
xo
Sally
